Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Stressed

I'm reading a book called, How to Survive and Maybe Even Love Nursing School, and it's so stressing me out. And I'm still just taking my prerequisites. I now think I'm Co-dependent. There's a whole list in there and I swear I have like 15 of the 10 behaviors (yes, I typed it that way intentionaly, I'm going for humor). I've been running around trying to get the house in some organized pristine condition so that this semester can go smoothly. Jason was supposed to get here at 5 Tues and Thurs of last week and this week as a trial run so that I knew he could do it (he has a slight be-on-time phobia) and I could have enough time to get to my class without worrying that he'd be putting friend Colleen out (she's watching the boys from 3-5 so I can build in some study time). Oh, back to finishing my thought earlier, and he hasn't been able to get here at 5. I just bought my text book, flipped through it and OH MY GOSH. So I bought a biology refresher book, flipped through that and even though I've taken biology I don't remember most of what I'm reviewing.
Deep Breath
All of this aside. I'm just plain afraid I'm not smart enough.
I mean when got my BA, who cared, really, if I didn't quite understand Walt Whitman's whole hug a tree mentality, it wasn't going to kill anyone. I think If I don't understand EVERYTHING (and realistcially who out there can) I may kill someone. That's a little freaky!
Deep Breath
Glad I'm journaling this and reading this book. Because, I do think most people going into this field are afraid of that, and most of us going into this field do have co-dependent tendancies...come on, NURSING, TAKING CARE OF PEOPLE.
Whew.
Ok, the house doesn't have to be perfect! As long as the shirts go in the shirt drawer, it's ok if they're not perfectly folded....oh wait, have to do some more deep breathing.....yes, it's OK that they're not perfect!
A B is still and okay grade
And I haven't even taken the class yet, so no need to get stressed til my first test...

all better now!
Wow, it's so not evident I actually DID a yoga tape this morning.

4 comments:

Martha said...

Trust me, the assumption is that student nurses will kill the patients. They apply this principal until you've proven yourself worthy. In other words, they keep you on a very short leash so as to "first do no harm". I could give you some more pearls of wisdom but then you'd know I was blogging and boozing...

tz said...

our next coffee tawk you can regail me with really terrifying stories about nursing school...i'll even slip in some baileys so you'll cough up the good stories and i'll handle them well (i may do a double shot in my cup)

Martha said...

quit ya slogging and give me an update. I'm bored out here with no fresh blogs to read...and since CFD is on her way to KS, I have but you to pick on! :)

tz said...

oooh, colleen didn't go to kck, so totally email her and give her flack for not blogging...of course i should actually check to see if she has yet, i might premature in the giving crap to her dept.