Saturday, October 28, 2006

Mulligans

This weeks challenge is: If I had it all to do over again, I would do most all things differently. However, how would I know that, if I had not had the opportunity to do them the first time.
-Janice Markowitz
In golf, there's this thing called a Mulligan. Basically, if your golfing buddies agree to let you have it, it's your chance to try again without a penalty. It's a do-over. We don't get many Mulligans in life. But if we did... if there was one Mulligan you could take - one do-over - what would it be?

I have so many "what if" scenarios in my head....it's hard to come up with the perfect thing, because my life is basically good. Maybe it would be not gaining so much weight, but that wouldn't be just one mulligan it would be thousands of moments of choosing apples rather than pizzas. Maybe it would have been getting a degree that meant something and having a more meaningful career before having my family. Instead, I wasted my twenties waiting. And now I'm at a loss of what to do with my life beyond being a mother and a wife(whole other Oprah). I think I would like a shift in personality, one where I stand up to bullies and people saying mean or prejudicial things; where I have the confidence to stand up for my children --- like when others are thinking they're behaving badly and I think they're behaving like children. This is where I would like to take my do-over, when it comes to defending my children and my beliefs....I'm not sure which moment in the past I would choose, but it would be nice to have done it once.

1 comment:

Anne H. from ginapalooza said...

Wow! The poetry of a mom woman who loves her life.

This is really beautiful.